Wear your fandom on your sleeve, and let yourself glow with pink hair (partial week in review)

originally Posted on Apr 28, 2006 6:03 PM

Thursday: I thought since I might have to present I better work on the footage I was going to show for class. I was up until 1:30 AM editing it. I had to pack all my things incase I had to present. In my writing class we had to write haikus. I was inspired by my favorite South Park episode, "Roger Ebert Should Lay Off the Fatty Foods". To write a haiku about Cartman. I Cartman. But nobody got my South Park reference. But a lot of people in the class are frustrated with poetry. We did a lyrics assigment and somebody read "Stairway to Heaven", I'm not really into old music. I guess when your dad loves it so much and it gets shoved down your throat you tend not to like it. So I had to present my lyrics. I presented "Under Construction" it was very hard for me to do. Not just because I had to speak in front of the class which terrifies me. I did feel a little more comfortable because I was talking about No Doubt. I had to explain about No Doubt to the teacher who had no idea who they were. I also had to explain about the whole "Return of Saturn" era with the pink hair and such. It was different present to this class because nobody knows me. Like the way people did in high school. I'm not really that open with my love for No Doubt like I was in high school. I had something to prove back then. Now "I got nothing to say, I got nothing to prove". And I ended up getting into all their different albums. Somebody else was talking about a Poe song and I couldnt believe nobody knew or remembered Poe. I guess I just really like those female singers. And it's so hard to even mention music from the last 10 years cause the teacher has no idea who we are talking about. She thinks I'm really into music, which I am, but I also love writing. Since the projector in my comm class was still broken we had to meet in the library. Some people in the class did a project about the influence of music videos. They were acting like people are sponges and that they do everything they see. And I admit I was influenced my music videos. Like when I had pink tipped hair and went to rave. And the time I was a member of the A-Team and I tried to foil Gary Coleman's plan. Or the time I went into a comic book. Ok , that never really happened , but it could have if I was really influenced by music videos. Then the teacher admitted to liking Kriss Kross and said that we were to young to remember them. Well maybe the people 19 and under would. But I admit I liked them too. Backwards clothes ruled back in '92. Well I was slated to be the last person to present. But we only had 15 minutes left, but due to my stupidity and charm. I got out of presenting until the next class. Which means I have the whole weekend to "budget" and get my act together.

Friday: I got my math test back with a bad grade on it. I was bored so I started to draw a goth version of Alice, from Alice in Wonderland.

“Regret Nothing. Fear Less.”

Current mood: adventurous
Category: School, College, Greek
Originally posted on March, 16, 2008

I know I took the title of the blog from a Cena quote. Really before now I never really thought much of it. I just thought it was just another stupid quote he was using so they could put it on a new shirt design to sell. But now for some reason it’s speaking to me. I just want to also say that this blog is not about Cena. I was going to write about what happened all week, but I decided that this blog needed to stand alone. This happened on Tuesday.

I just want to say that I’m notorious for living in the past. I like reading old magazines, playing with old toys, watching old tv shows and listening to old music. Hell if I could I’d still be wearing round toed platform saddle shoes and some wide legged pants. But one can’t live in the past forever sometimes you just gotta look forward to the future, and tell yourself that the past is over and move on.

In the morning before school. I told myself I was going to the club rush and meet new people. This new feeling came over me. I can’t describe it. I feel like I’m willing to take risks. I’m not willing to take extreme risks like skydiving. I mean like talking to and meeting new people or trying something different.

I stayed where I was because I was in a comfortable rut. You can’t wait for things to change you have to make it change. Before my motto use to be "something will happen eventually" which is a bad motto to have.

In class I was using my prior knowledge of 11th grade chemistry. I got all caught up in thinking about ionic bonds. I mean that was like one of the few things I learned in chemistry. Even though I had taken chemistry like 7-8 years ago I was still confused. She had us do a work sheet. I did it wrong at first, but then I spent a long time working on it. I got too caught up in how to read the periodic table in a certain way. Like the noble gasses and the most stable because they have the most electrons and really don’t need anymore. I was hoping I would get out of class early so I could go and see the clubs.

When I got to the club booths I was thinking of going straight to the anime booth. The funny thing was there was this guy talking to somebody else and he said he watched 80% of all the anime. Does he realize how much that is? I’m there to join a club and meet new people and not "out fan" them. I realized that risk of running into clingy otakus or even running into the otakus from the Japanese class I took last year. I’m willing to take that chance. I thought nothing was going to happen if I just sat around and waited for something to happen. I signed up. They wanted your email and phone number, but I only gave my email address. If they want they can contact me by email. I’ll go to the meetings if it fits into my schedule.

There is a person from my past who hurt me and I just want to tell them I forgive them. I don’t know why you did what you did and maybe I won’t ever understand it, but I’m ready to put the past behind me. And if you are reading this my door is always open if you want to talk there are no burned bridges here.

"Don’t forget your roots, but also don’t rot."- Move On by No Doubt.

Some Common Misconceptions About Me

Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life
Originally posted on August 10, 2007

I am sexually attracted to Gwen Stefani because I say that I "love" her.

My "love" for Gwen is more admiration I don't love her in a romantic way. I hate when people take it the wrong way. The English language only has one form of the word "love". I mean do you really "love" spaghetti that much? So it is hard to say you "love" something without having to convey the level of love some languages have more than one form of the word "love", like Greek.

Because I like cartoons I am "slow"

This misconception really pisses me off. People have been assuming this about me for over 10 years now. At first it use to really, really piss me off. But then I decided that they were not going to change and so I shouldn't either. There are some whispers *secret cartoon fans*.

I was a No Doubt fan before I was a Blondie fan

This is so common the bad thing is that nobody believes me because most people who know me met me after I became a No Doubt fan. The origins of my Blondie fandom is that when I was in 2nd grade I really didn't know what kind of music I liked I didn't like New Kids on the Block like all the other girls in my class did. I was looking for something different. So one day I was telling my mom about this problem and she put some Blondie for me and thought I would like it. I use to constantly listen to "The Best of Blondie" and I think I drove my mom crazy. I did learn the words to "Rapture" really quickly though.

I like the color yellow because of pikachu

I don't even like the color yellow. I like pikachu because it's pikachu. It could pink, red, green, blue, even polka dotted! It's just a cute pokemon.

What Happened to Gwen?

Current mood: nerdy
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
Originally posted on November 9, 2008

Ok if you really want to know what's with all this obsessing over Shirley Manson lately. Here's a little secret about me. My fandoms come and go in cycles. So for like a few months I'll be all into something and then it will die down and I will be into something else. Like in the beginning of the year I was all into John Cena especially after he came back from his injury at the Royal Rumble.

Actually my fandom for Garbage/Shirley was dormant for many years. But after I got that Garbage CD in August I wanted to know about Shirley. At first I just wanted to know basic stuff about her like her hometown and birthday. But then I started reading about her past and I don't know I can't really explain it or anything, but somehow I related to it. I found her to be an interesting tragic figure. I find it hard for me to put into words why I like her.

Remember when I wrote all those inane blogs about all those Garbage songs?

I also looked over my paper writings that documented the beginning of this fandom. In my August 19 entry of 2008 (this year). I found this really silly quote about when people meet Shirley. "I think they're a little shocked at first. Then they start laughing or grinning or shaking my hand." In response to it I wrote "I was thinking if I ever met her I just want to give her a big hug." I also wrote that the fan letter I was writing to her back in August I had no intention of giving to her.

Recently I reread what I wrote and it was so ironic to read. Especially what I thought would happen if I met her, and what really did. Like gasping at the sight of her and telling her "I love you!" repeatedly.

Too bad Shirley wasn't wearing this shirt when I met her.

Not that there was anything wrong with the outfit she was wearing.

I don't hate No Doubt/Gwen or anything the fandom has just gone dormant for a while. Actually my No Doubt fandom went dormant in like mid to late 1998 when they weren't really doing anything. That's around the time I became obsessed with Pokemon, especially pikachu. I like Gwen and Shirley very much and they are both awesome women in their own way.

Here's some funny pictures of Gwen's sizzling Halloween costume. She had a really cool hair style. I'll have to steal it. :P
http://justjared.buzznet.com/2008/10/26/gwen-stefani-sunny-side-up/

I love John Cena!

Since the link in the last blog I posted is "bad". Here is the blog it was linked to.

Originally posted on February 14, 2006
Current mood: cheerful

If you know me by know you know I do maybe too much. And this is not me kissing his ass either. This is true, genuine and coming from the heart. Anyway in my last blog I posted about wearing black well I killed 2 birds with 1 stone and I wore my Cena shirt because I love him. and because it's black. My new signature Valentine's color. Back in junior high I tried doing this same with a No Doubt shirt, but nobody got the joke. How sad.

Un Valentines Day Memories

Current mood: annoyed
Category: Romance and Relationships
Originally posted on February 15, 2007

I know this is a day late, but it took me a while to actually type this out. Valentines day and I have had a bad track record over the years. Some statements are things I have never revealed until now. My Asiaphile blog will be back next week.

4^th grade:

My class had a contest for making Valentines mailboxes, I made the sorriest looking box in the class. The kid who made the winning box, didn't even look like a mail box. And it looked like he didn't build it himself.

5^th grade:

My teacher was a bitch and got mad about something I forgot what, but she was so mad the class that she cancelled Valentines day on Valentines day morning. We weren't allowed to pass out valentines and she didn't want to see us doing it secretly either. We did pass them out during recess and lunch, but nobody cared about my valentines they just wanted the candy I was handing out.

6^th grade:

I had planned to go to a valentines dance with my hot new Clueless-esque outfit. I thought I looked so hot in my polyester XOXO brand black cargo mini with silver snaps and contrasting white stitching. I thought that skirt looked very "Rachel" (from Friends), my polyester flower print shirt with pearly buttons, black knee socks, and patent leather penny loafers. Now if that outfit doesn't scream 1996 I don't know what does. First off I didn't know mini skirt etiquette very well and I ended up having some embarrassing results. I ate some really nasty macaroni for lunch. The dance was bust. The worse thing was that that was my first dance ever. I remember one of the chaperone teachers told me that the boys pay money to sit on a bench and they don't even enter the dance. My feet were killing me in those shoes, so I ended up walking home barefoot and catching the end of Oprah.

7^th grade:

If I remember correctly this year was pretty mellow. Well except this girl wanted me to give her all my Winnie the Pooh valentines because she really wanted them and I really wanted the Sailor Moon ones she had. You know if either of us was smart enough we could have proposed a trade.

8^th grade:

I celebrated Valentines Day on Friday the 13^th because it fell on a Saturday and I wouldn't be at school on a Saturday. People were more concerned about Valentines Day than Friday the 13^th and bad luck. I didn't wear red because I was wearing my lucky shirt which was navy blue. I didn't really like red back then, but I kinda wore red because my shirt had red in it.

9^th grade:

Valentines Day was celebrated on the 12^th because it fell on a Sunday that year. They day before (the 11th) I had watched the video for "Just a Girl" and I felt inspired by it. So I felt like dressing like Gwen, like that is a surprise. So I wore my pants low and my shirt high and a high ponytail. I went to a Valentines day dance at lunch. (my 2^nd dance ever and ironically a Valentines one) It was a pretty cheap dance because it was held during lunch. I was cold at the dance because I thought I looked really cool dressed like Gwen, and I didn't cover up my midsection. I ended up getting sick a few days later. I was also crushing on this guy and I was tempted to buy a Sailor Moon Valentines gram and send it anonymously, but I didn't know which class he was in. I spent that Valentines day moping around a feeling sorry for myself.

10^th and 11^th grade:

These years were pretty mellow nothing really to report here other than me being single and bitter about it.

12^th grade:

I was reading the February 2002 issue of Teen and there was an article about girls who celebrated un-valentines day I got the idea to not celebrate it that year. By then I was already sick of it, and being single didn't help either. When you are in junior high and high school it seems like Valentines day is being crammed down your throat. One of the ideas I got from the magazine was to wear all black because it was your way of not showing your "love" for the holiday by wearing colors like pink, red, and purple. So I wore all black except for my red and white striped socks because I thought they were very "Gwen" and very cute. I wanted to wear my pants like she had wore them at the Billboard awards 2 months earlier in December. I still think black knicker pants and red and white striped socks look cool. So that was the only red thing I was wearing. This girl got mad at me because she said I copied her. She was wearing a short sleeved red and white striped shirt. How could I have copied her? I was wearing striped socks and she was wearing a striped shirt. I don't see how those are the same thing. Plus I was trying to copy Gwen anyway.

2003, 1^st year of college:

I was going to try and experience my 1^st Valentines day in college. Aside from seasonal Conversation Hearts being sold at the student store. I actually forgot the holiday was coming up. That year I didn't feel bad about being single or anything like that . I was going to go to school on Valentines day that year, but I got sick and never made it to school.

2005 3^rd year of college:

I actually forgot it was Valentines day that year until I saw people on the street wearing red and pink. By then I was so over that and I hadn't wore red on Valentines day since that incident in 2002.

2006 4^th year of college:

I had written about this Valentines day in a blog last year. Ok I only wrote about wearing my black Cena shirt and professing my love for him.

Aside from what I wrote in the blog I saw a lot of people on the bus in festive colors pink, red and purple. My writing teacher was decked out in red and made us write about Valentines day. The day before there were these 2 girls in my math class who were complaining about how their boyfriends were treating them on Valentines day. But those girl seemed to have a "high school" mentality.

As for this year I didn't do anything, and that was the best way to celebrate.

As a special treat here is a list of some of my more remembered Valentines day outfits broken down by year.

6^th grade, 1996- Clueless-esque outfit

8^th grade 1998- Navy No Doubt ringer shirt

9^th grade 1999- A crop top and low cargo pants and a high ponytail

11^th grade 2001- Sailor Moon shirt

12^th grade 2002- Black outfit with red and white striped socks

4^th year of college 2006- Black John Cena shirt