“Regret Nothing. Fear Less.”

Current mood: adventurous
Category: School, College, Greek
Originally posted on March, 16, 2008

I know I took the title of the blog from a Cena quote. Really before now I never really thought much of it. I just thought it was just another stupid quote he was using so they could put it on a new shirt design to sell. But now for some reason it’s speaking to me. I just want to also say that this blog is not about Cena. I was going to write about what happened all week, but I decided that this blog needed to stand alone. This happened on Tuesday.

I just want to say that I’m notorious for living in the past. I like reading old magazines, playing with old toys, watching old tv shows and listening to old music. Hell if I could I’d still be wearing round toed platform saddle shoes and some wide legged pants. But one can’t live in the past forever sometimes you just gotta look forward to the future, and tell yourself that the past is over and move on.

In the morning before school. I told myself I was going to the club rush and meet new people. This new feeling came over me. I can’t describe it. I feel like I’m willing to take risks. I’m not willing to take extreme risks like skydiving. I mean like talking to and meeting new people or trying something different.

I stayed where I was because I was in a comfortable rut. You can’t wait for things to change you have to make it change. Before my motto use to be "something will happen eventually" which is a bad motto to have.

In class I was using my prior knowledge of 11th grade chemistry. I got all caught up in thinking about ionic bonds. I mean that was like one of the few things I learned in chemistry. Even though I had taken chemistry like 7-8 years ago I was still confused. She had us do a work sheet. I did it wrong at first, but then I spent a long time working on it. I got too caught up in how to read the periodic table in a certain way. Like the noble gasses and the most stable because they have the most electrons and really don’t need anymore. I was hoping I would get out of class early so I could go and see the clubs.

When I got to the club booths I was thinking of going straight to the anime booth. The funny thing was there was this guy talking to somebody else and he said he watched 80% of all the anime. Does he realize how much that is? I’m there to join a club and meet new people and not "out fan" them. I realized that risk of running into clingy otakus or even running into the otakus from the Japanese class I took last year. I’m willing to take that chance. I thought nothing was going to happen if I just sat around and waited for something to happen. I signed up. They wanted your email and phone number, but I only gave my email address. If they want they can contact me by email. I’ll go to the meetings if it fits into my schedule.

There is a person from my past who hurt me and I just want to tell them I forgive them. I don’t know why you did what you did and maybe I won’t ever understand it, but I’m ready to put the past behind me. And if you are reading this my door is always open if you want to talk there are no burned bridges here.

"Don’t forget your roots, but also don’t rot."- Move On by No Doubt.